I know the Lord says he will not put more on us that we can bear….so I have to trust in him that he won’t.
I found out this week I have breast cancer. I probably won’t be here much…but plan on starting a blog to just write about my cancer and the struggles with that. I’m supposed to have a bone scan Monday…then a CAT scan on Tues. to see if the cancer has spread. I pray to GOD it hasn’t. I have so much to live for…..
It’s kind of ironic…this time last year I was in a suicide crisis unit. Didn’t really care if I lived or died. Now I’m wishing with everything in me I didn’t have this horrible disease. I want to live…..and now I may have no choice. Amazing huh……
My daughter is handling this much better than I thought she would. I was so afraid she would go get high…..because of this…….but I don’t think she has. I pray to God….if I only had one prayer…it would be for her to get off those stupid drugs and never go back on them again. I would gladly lay down MY LIFE….for her!!!!
I’m not going to question God…..he knows my future……not me. I’m just thankful he allowed me to wake up this morning……and trust he will be with me during this long battle with this horrible disease that has NO MERCY!!!!!!!